We kissed goodbye and went our separate ways but the memory of you, of us lingers on. We still can’t let go of Us, of Joey and Wrennie and yes, things are different but somehow the same between us. We still talk, text G’mornins/G’nights, meet for lunch/dinner, watch movies and then fall again into “Our” comfortable kisses, the tender caresses and the passionate lovemaking.
You have said you still have “our” memories filling your thoughts…So do I, they haunt me as well and tonight is one of those nights. Missing you sometimes catches up with me, sweeps me in its path and leaves my body sprawled on a desert dune and my soul lost in a labyrinth of space and time.
I’ll miss you ’till another day brings you back to me once more, if only for the night.
I miss you so much right now…
I need to feel you against me.
I want to melt in your embrace.
I need you so much right now…
I crave your lips on my neck…
And the way you whisper in my ear,
that makes me weak at the knees.
I want you so much right now…
I miss your smile and your laugh.
I miss your warmth and your touch.
I miss everything that you are.
I miss everything you make me feel, when we were together.
Every day without you is pure torture…
Wishing you were here, your touch that has touched my soul.
I miss you so much right now…
Missing you makes me realize just how much those heart felt, ultra-long and always so-special conversations mean to me.
I miss our funny, silly little stories that only we could understand.
I miss sitting on the sofa together and talking, just talking.
I miss when you hold my right hand and kiss it softly when you’re driving.
I miss laughing with you, when we’d discover things that we both thought were really funny.
I miss your texts “Smile because I love You”.
I miss your crazy ability getting every word in the JUMBLE right!.
I miss our coffee @ 1:20a.m.!
I miss your smile when you say Wrennie.
I miss our rides to the baseball field and looking up at the stars and you telling me that I own the moon.
And those three simple words that say so much, feel so much.
What else can I say?
I really do.
I cried myself to sleep last night you know. I was just missing you and I felt alone. There I was lying on the couch, a tear escaped my eye and I began to cry. (Seems the couch is my favourite place to boohoo.)
With all of my being I want your arms around me. I want to feel your lips on my mine and your fingers playing with my hair. I miss spending the days and mostly the nights alone with you.
Most of all…I just wanted you. I wanted to be able to turn over and see your face thisclosetomine.
And I hate that I’m so wrapped in emotions. Why do I cry like this so often? It is so not like me.
I am usually so composed, so in control of my feelings. Perhaps it’s because I don’t want to be in control all the time. Or perhaps it’s because I just really miss you.
I am missing you even if we’ve just seen each other. I am wanting to hug you more even when I’ve just held you. I am wanting to give you kisses even when we’ve had hundreds. I love you even more than what I am capable of.
You make every second that passes by worthwhile. Tomorrows do not seem so dreary anymore because you make me look forward to being loved more. You make me secure in such sense that I do not need to worry about who I was or what I’ve done in my past. You make me a whole person because you’ve accepted my imperfections and made them seem so irrelevant. You’re more than I could have ever asked for or fallen so madly, deeply in love with.
You lead me back to a place where my heart is secure knowing that you’re the person I can love endlessly. And vice versa
Most nights I’m fine.
I crawl into my bed alone; I dream about faraway lands and fairy tale times and wake to another day full of potential.
But some nights I’m not so fine. Sometimes I just want you to hold me, to laugh with me, to call me your Wrenbird. These are the nights when missing you is almost too much for me to handle.
I’ve missed you every day. But, I have been able to smile a bit and be glad that I have a love like you and that is enough to keep me going until we are together again